A few months ago, I decided to be more present about life and learning what it truly meant for me to be healthy and happy. A truly personal journey, one where I started to become more aware of who I was- from both a mental and physical aspect. What it took for me to become really at peace with myself.
Being healthy...was that by always watching what I ate, never drinking, turning down dessert, going to bed early to get in that required amount of sleep, stressing out about details, sticking to a regimented workout schedule- a regimented life schedule? That's what I was doing, but was it really living?
I mean, you probably already know the answer- because it was no, no I wasn't.
So I decided to live by a new mentality for a while, one that is not very eloquent but has worked for me.
You read that right... fuck....it
Dessert in the middle of the day, f it, delicious. Skipping a workout to lay on the beach, f it, yeah. Going out on a Tuesday night for a tequila, f it, absolutely. New tattoo? Fuck yes (sorry mom). Learning something new that terrifies me like how to surf, fuuuuuuck yeah (screaming laughing as I fall off of my board time and time again).
Trying out for a job position that I was unsure about, out of my comfort zone, fuckity fuck scary but yes. More on that later, but I did get it and it means a bit of a career change.
So yeah, it's safe to say that this new motto can get scary at times- as it's basically saying yes to all kinds of things I never would have before. However, staying in your comfort zone doesn't create change. Guess what does cause change? Being f*cking scared.
Life throws things at you that you might not ever be truly ready for, keeps you on your toes. It forces you to make decisions that you aren't ready for- but if you are just going through the motions of every day, the same motions over and over just to stay safe... is that really a life?
"Are you breathing just a little and calling it a life?" -Unknown